I’ve noticed recently that the functions of mobile technology are quickly overtaking their separate, less compact and less accessible equivalents. My relatively technical DSLR doesn’t seem to be able to do much more than the camera on my phone, and i don’t use the full Adobe suite I pay for and use on my amply equipped, high spec laptop any more than the free app I have on my phone. Even blogging on my phone seems pain-free.
I thought I would demonstrate this new found….freedom I suppose, with a showcase of a few snaps I took and edited, of my partners recent cider brewing mission (he too has inadvertently got on the homegrown, homemade, screw the system bandwagon)
Most people have a bucket list of some description, consciously or not. The only definitive thing I had on mine was to go to the Eden Project. Adventurous I know! I think I felt it would satisfy some of my need to give meaning to my life by seeing more of the material world than just my own back garden. This is in the hope that when my current vessel gives up, I can find peace in the fact that I have made some use of my mortal time, therefore making death a little easier.
My reasoning behind this lonely entry on my rather short bucket list was that the Eden Project basically takes some of the worldly elements from beyond my back garden and puts them in one convenient place, not too far away from my current location without much expense, planning or commitment needed.
So I eventually made it to the Eden Project and imagine my surprise when the whole experience was a disappointment. It seems that if you really want to find wonder and meaning in the world, you have to go out and look for it, not expect it to be brought to you.
Despite my disappointment, I did take a few pictures of the experience and got to dip my toes back into the world of photography and digital editing. A catalyst for more creative digital exploits I hope, and definitely a lesson learned when it comes to matters of self-betterment.
My recent trail of thought has revolved around fear; what types of fear there are and what we associate with fear. I am also looking at the link between fear and the ego.
I recently read an interesting article (psychologytoday.com) which states that there is only 5 basic fears; extinction, mutilation, loss of autonomy, separation and ego-death. I found this to be quite accurate from my own experience. Some fears will include more than one of these at any one time and separation is intrinsically linked to the ego.
I thought of a few ideas to test this theory and one that stumped me was fear of ghosts. spiritualliving360.com comes up with an interesting concept that it is because they are associated with death or extinction. It could also be a fear of the unknown which could be related to either ego-death or loss of autonomy.
I have been exploring my own relationship with fear and most of it evolves around the fear of fear – I avoid certain situations not because they are a threat but because I want to avoid the feeling of being scared. A field of enquiry that does send shivers down my spine however is the uncanny – the fine line between animate and inanimate objects, and the suggestions of a fearful element, without the reveal that shatters the illusion.
I have been trying to represent fear in my recent artwork. Here is a couple of pics I was lucky enough to capture in my local park: